Denied!

In a way I can grasp that concept of how a mother must feel meeting her baby for the first time or even love at first sight. I feel the anxiety leaving my baby in someone else's care for more then an hour or two hoping everything is being taken care of just right. And I've felt that fear thinking that something I've wanted for so long, feel is mine, and have given my heart to could be taken from me at any moment. For the first time since February 8th I can honestly say I feel some sort of weight lifted.
The aunt in Illinois has been denied. I received the official call from the case worker this morning letting me know that the denial paper work was sent off today. In some "fluke" she was able to get the back ground information a lot sooner and didn't have to wait for the entire ICP (Interstate Check Program or something like that) to clear. The back ground paper work had enough on there to give DCFS confidence enough to completely deny the submission.
I don't know what all they saw but I really don't care enough. I just felt blessed to know that I didn't have to wait forever to find out what would happen to my 'lil Asher.
Still, from the time Asher is put into foster care, there is a 120 day window for family to request guardianship of him, but it doesn't look like there are any other family members to do that. I don't feel worried about it anyways.

So what's next?
We get to attend a Foster to Adopt class tomorrow evening.
We have court in two weeks to remove parental rights. Asher and his siblings will be in the custody of the state until adoptions are final. At the hearing I will stand to testify that I will gladly adopt Asher. The state will not release parental rights unless a potential adoptive placement is made.
When that hearing is over we will get in contact with an attorney and start working towards that desired August date when Jaron Orville Harrington will finally become Asher Jaren Johnson.