Coincidence?

Over a year ago Asher crawled in bed with Kurt and me. I absolutely love mornings that start out with family snuggles, kisses and tickles. For the first and only time in my life I felt a void like someone I knew and needed was missing. I mentioned it to Kurt who immediately said "We're missing two kids." We were at the beginning stages of trying to have two of Asher's bio siblings in Montana placed with us and Kurt was sure they were to be ours. "No. I just feel like we're missing one." That was it. We continued on with our day and I never had that strong feeling again.
I'm not sure when it happened last December or January but we were waiting for a final decision on those two sweet kids in Montana. Call it a day dream, vision, sign, answer from Heaven or coincidence I had another interesting experience. I saw a little foster boy coming to stay at our home. I didn't see his face; I didn't know his age. I just knew it was a boy from foster care and I knew he would bring me joy. I could feel the excitement as if it were really happening.  I didn't share my experience with Kurt at the time partly because I didn't really know what it was and partly because again we were hoping and praying for two precious little bio siblings to be placed with their brother.
Finally a decision was made (see post) and we were forced to move on. I forgot about my two experiences for a time and focused on planning a family trip to Cancun. We needed something fun to look forward to; something to pry our minds away from our loss.
We took our foster hold off and waited for another placement to come. Our RFC would check in every so often and let us know that sibling groups were plentiful, and while we were willing to take a sibling group of two, I honestly didn't feel we'd get that kind of placement.
April 6  I got a call around 3 pm from my RFC letting me know of a little 4 year old boy who needed a home. Would I be willing and able to pick him up from the Provo office after a visit with his family at 5 pm? Kurt was in a meeting so I frantically texted him until he responded "Let's do it!"
Everything seemed to fall in to place on this one. I had loaned my car to my parents whose car was in the shop. Right after getting off the phone with the RFC my Dad called to say I could pick up the car and my sister was over conveniently and volunteered to take me to my parents so I could pick up my car and then drive the rest of the way down to Provo. Pretty perfect since Kurt wouldn't be getting home until 6.
I get so nervous EVERY SINGLE TIME! There are so many questions left unanswered: How will this child fit in our family? Will I have what it takes to help him? Will he be reunified? Will he need to be adopted? Will I love him? Definitely a jump in the dark but it's exciting too! "Is he the one?" started swirling through my head. I know the kind of supportive foster parent I hope to be and didn't want this thought to cloud my wanting to be kind and helpful to a broken family in grave need.
Asher and I made it to the Provo Office and sat down to wait. The case worker popped her head out of a room and beyond her I could see 5 or 6 black haired people roaming the room. Hispanic maybe? Your imagination runs wild until finally "it's time" and they let us in. The people parted and left in the middle on the floor playing with a few cars was a little red head kid with pale skin. Looking around at siblings and mom I couldn't figure out where this kid came from. A week later I got to meet his dad and finally saw the resemblance.
Ethan-
He's just 2 months younger than Asher. (Two people have already asked if they are twins because of their ages. Yep, that's why they look so much alike. :) ) He's tender, loving and sweet. He can talk and talk about the most random things. He misses his mom and dad. He tells me he loves me at least 5 times a day. He loves to be touched and kissed and asks me often to scratch his back. He plays so well with Asher and they rarely fight. He has "orange" hair and we will love him for as long as we have with him.

Ethan at Wine's Park

Me, Asher and Ethan riding the "little" train at This is the Place.

BYU Dinosaur Museum 

Exploring Tibble Fork up AF Canyon

He is such a helper and does chores with a smile

First Owls baseball game of the season

He decided playing with the worm was way more fun then actually fishing

Hiking to Grotto Falls

Boys and their sticks. Right before a visit

Provo Balloon Fest. Snuggling to keep warm early in the morning.

4th of July

So do I think/know he's mine? Is he the one? I don't know. Maybe because part of me hopes his family can fix the broken. I know that's what he wants. No matter what it's looking like he'll be with us for a while and I think we're all fine with that. Welcome to our home Ethan.