Back in February and March of this year Kurt and I started talking about what we wanted to do next. Love Asher to pieces and while I feel such a satisfaction with him we both felt siblings are priceless. So how do we go about adding to our numbers?
I actually was having some random pains in my ovary area (which I won't go in to here) so I went back to my original OBGYN. He asked about my infertility and said if I was interested in trying again to give him a call. I almost laughed. What now you believe me that I'm not having kids?! It only took 9 years to prove it to you? :) I assured him that after 9 years of "trying" I was content with adoption.
I came home and told Kurt about the short conversation I had with my doctor. Kurt said he was still very curious to know what our biological child would look like and I couldn't stop thinking about it either. In vitro swam back to the surface, only this time I was more willing to deal with my issues (fear of needles, roller coaster ride etc...) and look in to it. We went to a free seminar and the Dr there said my best years were fleeting. I was on the older end of the spectrum and if this was something we planned on doing we needed to act fast. That doesn't make me feel old. Chances were looking closer to 40/60.
With a little pressure behind us, we decided to book a consultation. Our HSA account was growing and we decided that and our insurance should probably cover most of the cost, making it feel a little less risky financially. I was told to call our insurance provider and found out that we wouldn't be covered AT ALL. I felt like I had just received another blow to the infertile gut. Having that much out of pocket plus paying more if we do get pregnant to meet our deductible felt scary. This was no guarantee. Some how it didn't feel worth it and we quickly backed up to the original plan of just fostering again.
So as soon as we get in our new home this fall our main goal is to get ready to foster again.
The saga continues.
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