Tomorrow You're Mine

Dear sweet 'lil Asher,
It's Sunday evening about 7:45 and your daddy and I just laid you down for sleep. Your dad asked if I'd say family prayer tonight and (as you'll soon learn to expect from me) I cried my way through it. All the feelings of longing and wanting you, and tomorrow morning you will be mine. Waiting for you to come was the hardest thing I have had to do, but now that you're here I think the waiting has made me cherish you that much more. All of a sudden the past 7 years of wanting doesn't seem so long anymore. Oh how I love you.
I can't believe it's already been 7 months since you've been in our home. 7 months exactly in fact. I still remember looking behind the zebra blanket to first peek at you in your car seat. I tried not to show my excitement or the emotion that ran through me. I didn't know if it was appropriate to hope yet and didn't want to scare off your case worker, Candice. I didn't want her to know that I felt an immediate connection to you, that I wanted you, that I already loved you.
That night I was eager to wake up with you and cuddle your tiny little body and feed you. Who needed sleep when I had you? I felt I could stare down at you for hours and hated being pulled away to work. It's such a blessing to be a full time mom; I don't have to miss any of your developmental accomplishments. I was there to cheer out each tooth, to practice rolling over until you finally got it, to kiss your head when you toppled over, to bathe you, to laugh with you, to coo with you.
As we reach the day I have been counting down since I got the date, I want you to know how much you mean to me. I will do my best to be patient and to bring joy in to this home we now call yours. I want you to feel the spirit of God here. I want you to know you have a Savior, and I want you to know prayers are answered the way Heavenly Father knows is best. Most of all I want you to know that you are loved and wanted. I will do my best to teach you all of these things. I know you where meant to be mine and I'm so glad it's finally time to receive you in to our family. "Happy am I" my little Asher, "happy am I."

Love you always and forever,
Your Mom